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Saturday, May 24, 2008

Missing You

Missing You

hitori (alone) comic zine -$1- Missing You Card -$2.50- Never be Lonely - Art Print -$12-
Foggy Morning - Original Fine Art Photograph 8x10 -$25- RecGlass Onesie Cool Blue -$10- EMERALD FOG Original Collage ACEO Artist Card-FREE SHIPPING -$11-
CLEARANCE - Innocent Blonde - Original Illustration -$55- a world so big -$7- waiting -$25-
If we had our druthers, we would drink unicorn tears -$14- Muny Pavillion bench -$25- I Miss You note card -$3.50-

The other day my wonderful husband tells me to go out and spend some of our stimulus check on myself, (considering most of my clothes are either from 2 years ago or maternity). And he would watch Calvin (my 4 month old). I apprehensively went. It's horrible, as I walked into Fred Meyers, I got a sudden feeling of loneliness.

I felt that it was very obvious just how alone I was, and that everyone is going to look at me and be like, "Hey, she's alone!" Like I had this bright neon sign on me that said "New Mommy ALL ALONE". *all alone blinking on and off*

I found myself trying to be as inconspicuous as possible, folding my arms, bringing my shoulders in. It was horrible, it took me about 5 minutes to realize that I was doing that, and then another 5 or so to stop myself from doing it. But still, even after I stopped myself I couldn't help feeling this lonely, empty, "I'm missing something" feeling.

Although I did enjoy the shopping and the fab new clothes, I was so happy to come home and hold my little guy (he's the baby in this treasury, had to put him in since all these feelings came from me being way too attached to that little man)

Oh, and on an interesting note, that drawing up in the treasury, of the blonde girl (in the 3rd row), I was in awe when I found her, because, well, she's me! I wear my hair like that (even parted on the same side), I'm blonde, and I even wear green eyeshadow, though, not quite as thick as hers...but it was just crazy finding that one.

7 Entries:

Nodin's Nest said...

#1. your son is beautiful!
#2. I still feel that way when I leave my son.( I don't think that feeling will ever leave )
#3. Great treasury!

ElegantSnobbery said...

Aw, I understand that feeling. My first daughter had never been away from me for more than 6 hours at a time (and that only happened once!) until she was two and I went into the hospital to have my second daughter.

Now I relish the time to myself, when my husbands takes the girls... but I usually can't stand to be away for more than a few hours. And that only just started as my second baby turned one a few months ago!!

Lovely treasury!!

Rosebud Collection said...

Isn't it amazing how attached we become to children? If ever I was in the store without them and I heard a child call, mommy, I would start looking all over the place..then realize they were home with the father. Was always happy to get back home..


Thank you hon for posting on my blog. I'm feeling not much better but I can see alittle better this morning....;D

I love the pic of your son in this treasury......he is so sweet.

JulieAnnA said...

the treasury was great! congrats on the baby, and on the new clothes! new clothes always make me happy! :]

beadinbythesea said...

I understand the way you feel. My son is 11 now and I still feel that way when I go out without him or he's over at a friends house! It's just not the same. It may be that way for me because he's my only child! Beautiful treasury especially your little boy!

Tatyana said...

Lovely treasury. I don't have kids but i do get that feeling when someone else has my dogs...